I'm graduating in September!!!

Gosh I can't imagine myself that I haven't been writing my blog! I'm feeling guilty about this because this is supposed to tell stories about every new journey of my life. Even I have old draft blog that I didn't continue typing. A lot of things happened to me mentally actually. 

I was still feeling disappointed myself that I still didn't finished my course that I supposed to finished. Do you ever felt the same like me? Feeling of all your friends graduated before you, getting older year by year and no friends you can study together or eat with in university? I always feeling of unable to have self-control and most of the time I have no confident of myself. You know what, all these challenges pull me down a lot. I am afraid of telling people I failed again, knowing they knew it is my last semester but you have to tell them it is your last semester again. So afraid how they would think about me. I was so ashamed about myself while seeing your friends graduated without failing. Therefore, I became anti-social, I don't chat with the people that I think we are close. Especially people in my church.

I almost quit my course. I thank God for those who supporting me all the way and give me hope of continue to finished my course. Because of them I finally can graduate. Honestly, I never felt that happy when I looked at my result. I cried happy tears, I couldn't believe I passed. I tell you something, one case study that I need to do after my practical (caused me to failed on the previous semester), I wasn't doing good again in my current semester but God gave me another chance to redo the case study. You won't believe that I have to redo the same case study not new topic. So I took the chance to add more information in and correct the answers in four days. I also very thankful of one person who sacrifice his time to help me with my case study. I am so happy about it. :) Yeah the rest of the story will be telling to my friends and family. Thanks for reading and I'm so happy I able to share my joy. Last thing, don't give up when you think there is no hope.

Helpless but appreciate

I want to share about my feelings right now because I don't know what to do with it. I really dont like the feeling of helpless. Sometimes can make me feel like I hate myself for this. I know I shouldn't feel this way, so I am here to share and I have already shared to God but not enough. I also suppose to do my studies but keep thinking about this. But I will make this a quick blog. 

I have a friend who is very close to me. It is sad to tell about my friend's story. From this close friend of my, I have learnt so much from this person. I have learnt that life is actually unfair most of the time. This makes me wonder, God is there or not? I know I shouldn't doubt Him, I have to tell myself God has reasons for things happened and have to learnt to trust Him. Honestly, I thank God for everything what I have right now, I have a family that can support me with FINANCIAL and love. When I have everything, I don't feel the suffering of getting double jobs to support myself with my daily living. However, I have learnt to appreciate the money I have with me and know how to use the money wisely. I also learnt what are not important to me and even with what I enjoy but I able learnt to limit myself and still able to make me happy with what I have. I remember this verse, "And I am not saying this because I feel neglected, for I have learnt to be satisfied with what I have." Philippians 4: 11. Yeah, even I don't have something, I won't feel neglected but happy with what I have right now. 

With the life that go smoothly, not everyone have that kind of life, someone that close to me already has this problem. From the life that I have, I couldn't understand what going through in my friend's mind. I wish I can understand and able to help my friend. I know my friend will say you don't understand my problems, don't bother me. I know not just my friend, but people around me that have problems that haven't share by them. At one point, I just want to be with my friend and other people around me. I just don't want to feel they are just by themselves. I understand about their feelings, I just don't like them being themselves and ignore my help. I don't want them to focus on their problems and thinking is the end of the world. Yeah, this is why I feel helpless. Right now, I am desperately praying for my friend. 

You know, I just found my own motivation to study really hard with no excuses. I learnt that if I am not working hard for my own, how can I work hard for others. I also believe, God with bless me for working hard for something meaningful or I cherish the most. I wanted to show I actually appreciate what I have. I am thankful of knowing my friend's story. 

Cloud with negativity

I apologize for not blogging. I just really lazy for updating and I addicted to youtube. Youtube has so many video to watch and it will takes like the whole day. I know is really bad so I just tell myself to watch in the morning only. Okay, have to stop talking about youtube and back to the main reason of posting my blog today. 

I'm guessing you will know what I am going say. If not, I will say that recently I have been thinking so much negative thoughts. I guess I can say I am not a positive thinker and I thought I was. At the beginning, it was on and off but recently is quite often and I also been praying about. This situation I never thought I can be really negative, all my life I just know that I am not capable of doing anything right or wise decision in my life. People will also say I am a carefree person, never worry about anything and people see me always happy. It is true, I always have a family who love me and I trust them so much that they will not let me go though difficult life. However, it is not a good thing for me, I have so much trouble that is inside of me. Therefore, it has become worse in my young adult life.

I know I am the person who do not dare my fear if I know, uncapable of being independent, anti-social, selfish, afraid of taking my responsibilities, unorganised, poor education, confused or blur and I can go on all my negative side of me. At the beginning, I never thought so much about it but I live with it means I accepted that I am all those. There are few things about me that my mother said to me are I am not hard working like my elder sister and smarter like her, I also been told that I am not dependent like both of my sisters. My mother also said I am troublesome daughter, always make trouble to her. I also been told I dont know how to save money like younger sister do. Another thing is stupid. You know what, I never been angry at all to my mother but jealous on my both sisters. I just believe what my mother said to me because she is my mother and be sad about it. I also never thought these are really bad to myself. 

I can tell you when I believe I am all those, I don't care about anything like how terrible is my results are but I also will be happy if I can get my results good. I also don't care about changing for better or worry how my future will be like. I started to know it is dangerous to me when I came to Perth which I have to experience further about my problems. Alright, I let you know when you believe something, you will act upon it. I believe that I am uncapable of doing anything, I won't do things and I will be scare to do things because I will cause problems to others. I also believe I am not smart, so I don't take serious or work further more for my study. I do sometimes I want to show I can do it but not long and not successful. These negative about me have pull me away from experience something greater. 

It all started through my friend when I am here in Perth. I realised that when you want to find a true friend, the friend definitely dare to tell you things that you don't like to hear about or break your pride! Also, the friend will give you the best advice to improve. At the same time, God also part of my life that changes my life. God has been helping to open my heart and eyes to see my flaws bravely. God is the one that doesn't say I am worthless and He just say I am valuable, worthy to love and uniquely made by Him. I always compare to anyone else around me like how my mother compare me to my sisters. I couldnt stop even I tell myself to stop because so many thing lead me to negative thoughts about me. I usually help by telling myself I am unique that I am different from anyone else and is hard. Recently, God has confirmed me about it. Our value is never change no matter what people said, destroy us or how bad is our situation. NOW, I tell everyone of you God loves you no matter who you are because He made you. He said that I already feel enough and overcome. I still want to pray for myself to ask God for strength. Pray for me too. 

Library is my comfort place

Hahaha is true library is my comfort place now. I have been going to library everyday whenever I can to go library. When my friends ask me what I am doing in any other day, I just answered I am at the library studying. Like right now, I am blogging in the library and at my favourite area everytime. The area that has long, spacious and wall plugs!!! I love it when I saw them because I have my laptop everytime I go uni. I also can't believe myself that I goes to library everyday and is part of my lifestyle. But at night is different, I will go different building to study because library close early and the building I go is 24 hours!!! Yes 24 hours!!! How cool is that! Well that building is call abacus lab where only has computers, printer, scanner and few big tables. At the beginning of semester, not so much of students go abacus lab except during the day, so I love going there when there is no one besides you. I love there is no people around me, so quiet and peace. =) Means I can do anything I want at the place I am doing my studies. =P 

Okay, I have one good reason to go library to study is not cold like at home. Is sad that my room is super cold that you have to on the heater and is not a present feeling to on the whole time. I couldn't concentrate when my hand is so cold and when heater is on, I have to put my hand in front of the heater and my hand cannot move away from it. So annoying right? It also expensive to on the heater. =(  I can't wait for the summer to come because that time, I can predict that a lot of students will take over my favourite area and I can't be there at anytime I want anymore. One good thing is my clinical placement is coming soon, I wont be going library everyday anymore! So sad when I am thinking about it. I love library! 

Hahaha, yeah sorry I just share about me being in the library. Is just that my mind just think of going to library and how I am so enjoying it. =) Alright, back to study now. I have so much to learn before I go my clinical placement. Thanks for reading it and wish everyone enjoy your day as much as I do. 

Changes in me that desire to do

Recently I have the desire to change. My meaning of change can be anything such as being active in something, meeting new people with willingly, motivates myself to study, learn from people and many more. I can tell you throughout the blog. But I might just explain why I have the desire to change. 

Now, I understood a verse that I always wondering what are my desire in my heart. This is the verse in Psalms 37:4 "Seek your happiness in the LORD, and he will give you your heart's desire." Yeah, I always have this in my mind when I came across this verse most of the time I read my bible. I also do not understand what does it mean at first, so now I understood and I am so happy to share it on my blog. 

It is true that I have to seek my happiness in the LORD, because all these time I have been depending on a friend of mine. This friend has been my best friend while I am in Perth, I always feel so happy to be around with my best friend. But one thing I know that my best friend cannot be around me to makes me happy. Many times my best friend disappoints me, it hurts me so much. I realised that I depend on my best friend so much that I feel so weak and wanted to stay in my comfort zone. That's really kills me inside that I am not happy with it. Actually, my best friend knew about it that my best friend asked me to seek the Lord not me but I do not want to accept that. The main reason of not seeking the Lord because I want human to make me happy not nothing. I can't feel God is with me like hug me when I feel down, have a few conversations, teaching me while I unable to study and many things that human do. Yeah, I can say that many things going on in my life during the year that I haven't touch my blog. 

Then I felt so tired of seeking my happiness from my best friend. Time to move on to my next level of my life. I was like awake from a bad dreams and so relief that I can choose not to go through that again.  I won't say that is a bad dream just unhappy moments. I also have happy moments because is happy when you have best friend with you to count on. After that I seek the Lord when I am struggling to get out of my unhappiness, I am actually getting better everyday even though is not easy. I feel even happier than before, God has been helping me to open my eyes, my heart, ears and soul to accepts things and be happy about it. Slowly, I know what is my desire in my heart which is to change to be the person that God wants me to be. 

Honestly, I have so much to talk about it and I do not want it to be long on this post. So, I will post another blog when I am free again. This is just the introduction. =) Thanks for reading such a long blog. I really hope everyone will enjoy it.

My Testimony

Sorry for the delayed but I didnt forget about posting my testimony. =)

Here it goes....

I let you know that my life doesn't have any suffering because my parents love me and my siblings so much that they never wanted us to suffer. The reasons of making us safe because they had been through difficulties in their life and they also never give up for taking care of us. I am so blessed by God that he gave me such a loving and wonderful family to me. I know every family is not perfect but I satisfied for what I have in my life because God already gave me what I need. 

How I noticed there is God? I have many friends who dont have the same life as mine, so I wonder why I have this kind of life? I also wonder if I have the opposite life, honesty I really cant live in it. I was like WOW there is someone knew that I have to be in this kind of life. Of course God can do that! Besides that, things happened at home God has been helping my family so I believe God is real and I am thankful of what God has done with me!

For I know God is real, I took my step to received him as my savior when I was 16 years old. After I had received Jesus as my savior, I was out of touch from him because I thought that I became a Christian, everything will be easy for me and I never knew that I have to read bible, pray and worshiping him to get closer to Jesus. I also don’t know about baptism until I went to baptism workshop. Before that, I just knew that baptism just get out from the water and when you get through that is no way out mean I cannot escape from being a Christian. 

However, baptism is not that bad as I thought would be. It is just a higher level to get closer to God even more than before. It also a commitment to him that I really surrender my life to him and being obedience to his word.  To be honest, I have trouble of getting myself baptize because I am not a worthy of him for I have sin against him so much that I might hurt him even more if I do. But then I realized that’s not important anymore for I have forgiven by him who sacrifices his only son to show his love for me and he just want to have a relationship with me. That’s all matter. 

You know what, when I came to Perth to study, I feel so blessed because this is the place I know God so much more and know how to get closer him. I also want to thank God that he given me so much friends that I ever have. From that on, I didnt feel unhappy like I used to be even though I feel abit lonely sometimes but not long. As long I'm thinking of him, I know I am not alone because I realised that God doesn't left me all of my life and I trust him. Perth also help me to learn about myself so much that I didnt think of. Thank you Lord for bringing me here.  

Therefore, I want to follow God all my life to see the changes in my life. I want to be patient with it because I know is not easy. I also learn to obedient to him then I can grow deeply with him and receive blessing from him. 

Reborn again in spirit

I finally got baptised!!! After the long 7 years of being a Christian..!!! I cant believe I took my big step to surrender my life to him... I can say I am a wife to him before that just a girlfriend to him... Now, officially his wife... I said "Yes" before I dip into the water.... It was so great !! Wow, I still cant believed after 7 years only got baptised.. To tell you the truth, is not easy for me to baptise during the 7 years... Thats why it took me so long to go forward... I have so many things going on in my life that I regret for not accepting to baptise earlier...

However, nothing is too late... God still forgive me and change my way back to him again... For the past, I will not live in the past but live in the future with him!! Even though past is gone to me, Im really want to thanks for the past because the past is how it made me how I became now.... If no past, there is no starts of the future.... Same things as accepting him as my saviour, if you don accept him, you won get anywhere closer to him... God is real, I have nothing to loose by going to baptise or surrender everything to him... I want my faith going up and up not down... I want him thats all the matters, I cannot doubt him or testing him anymore... I want him to change me to be like him... I want to have relationship to him because he will not disappoint me or forsake me... He will always with me, I have nothing to worry... =) 

PS I have testimony to post... So stay tune.. =P

Lord I Give Myself

Lyrics:

Lord I give myself

I trust in You mighty God

My saviour

And you mecy and love

Overflows and my soul rejoices

Lord show me your ways

Guide my steps

Lead me to your righteousness

 

And the light of your love

Takes my fear away

Cause I know you

Walk before me

Oh my shepherd

You let me rest in your arms

You comfort me

And everywhere that I go

I'm not alone 

Mighty God

I know You're with me

This is my top favourite song in my life!!! I cant believe this song is suitable with my condition nowadays... This song just came out when I needed the most... He is really my saviour, comforter and my creator... I love him so much!!! He always surprise me when I needed the most while I'm having trouble with relationship and everything... This song does says it all.... I just have to give my all to Him... I can say I have a great relationship with Him and is getting better!! I love it...!! I hope this song will help you go through all the trouble in your life... Have a great blessing with God...

Share time... =)

This is a great video to share for you guys... Everything I wanted to tell, the video says it all... I agreed of what he said about religion.. I also just learnt that being a Christian is not a religion. Well is the relationship with God... Religion was just way for you to get to God, for example some religion the people have to sacrifice their body to workship or ask for forgiviness from God but God doesnt want you to and he sent his son Jesus came down to earth to sacrifice our sins. Then, other religions burn things to transfer to people who passed away. Don't you think these things make sense to you? God said heaven has everything you need, why do you need to burn? Heaven is free from everything and it is the wonderful wonderful place you wanted to be than earth and hell..

Hehe... I let you guys enjoy the movie... I pray everyone can understand the video and he is good.. God bless!!

My little Faith

Yay... I'm so happy to show my niece to you guys.... I didn't lie to you right? That I wanted to show pictures of my niece... So here they are... Isnt she adorable... >.<  Hope you are agree with me... ^^

She an angel that her smile makes people so happy... Even to me, I can look at her smile when I am down... I love her so much and I miss her everyday.... Now she is 8 months old but she looks so big size.... hehe.... Is a good thing that she is healthy and a happy baby now... =)

Yup thats all guys, enjoy yourself... =)

Tired from holidays

Yes I am tired from holidays.... I don't even know that my holiday in Malaysia for one month already full with plans.... When you are busy with the plans, you felt is not enough because you cannot do what you want or rest and didn't have time to make your own plans.... What I meant here is my mother had planned all the holidays for me.... Actually they were the best holidays so far... As you can see, from 3 of December until now only have time to write my blog... It felt finally!! =)

Well not enough time to rest, is like back from somewhere then you have to get ready for another trip... First holiday I had been was Korea then Kuching to visit my elder sister.... In Korea, went to Jeju island where the korean dramas always talk about... So it makes me wanted to go and is true that Jeju island is a beautiful island and had fun in Seoul also... 

The days that I spent in Korea is only 8 days and is not enough... This is because of the long journey to a place and to another place... It took 1-3 hours to reach the place.... Most of the time, is not free and easy means doesn't really go to the place we wanted to go and limited time... Therefore, I might go to korea to explore without tour guide but need to know how to speak few of their language... =)

Second holiday would be Kuching, this is trip that I wanted to go when I'm in Perth... There is where I wanted to see my niece!! My first niece I have and I can be her aunt... =) I will show you in the next blog and you will like her... Her name is Faith and she is only 7 months... All of our family loves her so much to accept her into our family.... God bless her on her health to grow up as a healthy girl... Love you Faith... 

Finally my plans are over after I came back from Perth... Now I can decides what I should do next.... Yay!! Time for myself to enjoy to plan to out with my friends... Here I come..!!! Thanks for viewing... =) Have a nice day everyone... 

Love Driving

I'm really happy to tell everyone that I love driving!! That's the only thing I wanted to share with you guys today!! After I have my driving license, I get to drive anytime and anywhere... Thats the best part that I love... I do not why I love driving... Kidding ..  I know why is because I am free from waiting, heavy stuff to carry, being pick by people and feeling helpless... While I'm driving, I felt I can drive and it makes me confident... That's also not the main point, driving shows who I am... Hehe... Weird right? Why I said that..?

First thing first, I have to carry my grocery to walk for so long and wait... Then I do not like trouble people to pick me and sometimes are hard to find people can pick me up... Those feeling I had before in previous sentence, I feel helpless that I can not help some people to send people home safely and to help out.... Therefore, I really need a car of my own to help myself and help my friends... I do not care is trouble me or not, I love to help out with all my best... Even though I have my car, I'm still using public transport because is cheap and love the journey by enjoying it the scenary....

Hmm.... I'm really hope there is someone can understands how I felt  and agree with me on " Driving shows who I am"... Let me ask anyone who can drive, do you met people who are driving slow, driving with no sense of direction, speeding, impatient, quick action and many more... hahaha... Too many to write down... What I mean is all those are your character or personalities in you that shown from the way you drove.... This is because while you are driving, driving cannot hide you and you cant pretend you are trying to be a good driver... It is unconciously shown by the way you drove...

Okay, let me tell everyone out there... Driving is not for fun, it is dangerous when you are not aware of your surroundings... When you know that, it is the best thing to be a good driver!!... Driving is changing me, you can't even imagine is the best thing in my life to know about myself through driving... =) While you are learning, unconsciously change about yourself the way you handle things and observe your surroundings.... I am so grateful for my dad that he doesn't want me to drive in Malaysia... My dad really knows me and loves me so much not to danger myself on the road.... Moreover, I am happy that my dad allowed me to learn in Perth because is safe... It is true =) Therefore, dad I am sorry that I angry you did not want me to drive.... I should have know you always keep an eye on me wherever I go and do.... You also want me to be safe..... Love you dad!!! 

Yup thats my blog!!.. Have to go...!!! Thanks for reading..!! Driver out there, be safe and enjoy finding yourself if you are new... =) One more thing, do not angry with other drivers.... Always be patience with them... ;) Take care!! 

Sharing =)

This is great, I want to share a video again... This video explains that chinese people also workship in same God as Christian people are.... Even chinese words explain how it became a word from decribing the history... It is so wonderful to know so much about God that he is the only God in this world.. There is no other God like him..... 

From all the chinese words, God is trying to tell me that God is really making process to change our lives. Besides that, it already pass down from generation to generation to let us know that God loves us and want us to go back on his lap to have a relationship with us.. It is so wonderful to know all these and I know God working through me... Thanks for the blessing... =)

Hehe... Okay, I dont need to write so much... The video will explains to you than you realise so many things are coming together.... Thank God for showing me this video to let me share with my friends... Goodnight guys...

My Surroundings

All of my life that I had been through so much for 22 years... I was so fortunate that I have for my life... I'm really feel God is so good to me all the times... He knows me so well that he gave me this kind of life I had been through until now... Yeah I have been thinking so much about my life these days... Is so great to take your free time to know about yourself and your past... 

Then I'm still seeing the things that really make me realise so many things and compare to mine.... I saw people who suffer, homeless, proverty, hunger, unloved, loneliness and many more.... Compare to our problems are so little to the people out there... Do you ever think of it? When you feel like not enough but you already have it all along... When you have problems... Do you always complains, "Why me?", then you said "Is there God up there being fair?"... When comes to family, "Why do I have to treat my siblings good or why my parents treat them good than me?", "Why I do not have my parents like their parents?", "Whats wrong with my parents, there have no rights to treat me this way?"... "How come their parents buy this expensive stuff to their children and why I cant get it?"...

Do you ever think God is really treat you that unfair when other people who get no rights than you? For example, God gives you a life when the babies or children abandoned by mothers who just dont care, but yours you have a parents, shelter, food and everything you need... So many people do not have food!! However, here we have food and then have leftover food... How wasteful it is... Do you think is unfair? You feel lonely? Are you sure? Open your eyes, you have friends..!! How about people ignore by other people because of races or proverty? Arent they are lonely? Why not just stop thinking about yourself then thinking others' have more problems than you...Therefore, stop complaining about the problems you have, solve it yourself than complaining... 

About parents and siblings, parents treat other siblings good is their problem, you still can live... Do not focus on the jealousy, focus on how you are going to live to make them proud... If they are not, then you make yourself live in a better life and be proud of yourself that you can do that... =) When your parents treat you good than other siblings, treat them good so that they wont feel unloved by parents, that is why you siblings for... Help one another... 

Do you ever think that parents being that way because of their past? How they brought up in the family? Think again? Do you feel your parents bad? Do not compare with other parents, they have try their best to do for you to love you... It is sad that people do not realise how great is their parents are.... My life I do complain my mother doesnt love me like other mothers, then again my mother love me in her way... I can see that my mother love love me so much that I cannot compare... I'm so fortunate and it is enough for me..... 

Even we have the life of everything we need, preciate what you have and don expect for more.... Dream to make people's dream comes true that they cant imagine to dream of.... What I mean is people always hope or dreams for something they can satisfy their needs because they have no hope, so people like us can dream to help them.... It can be anything.... Use the things you have to help others than keeping it yourself... God also teach us to share the things you have... 

Another realisation is people always invest on something that are not important... Here the thing, people gamble on soccer, why not the money to save others even though is little bit... I dont care it for fun, do you think people can have fun like you when they don have anything to enjoy... Unless, you lost to help your friend... Sad thing is they lost the bet, they think is end of life... How about the people do not have money to live... For those people sponsor the soccer, dont you think the money can help the third world country? (Heard it from a friend) If they do, do you think is enough?

I do not care about people think I am immature person but I know what I am saying... Let you think this way, one person is selfish then you add up other people is also the same, aren't it a lot when it comes to whole world? That is why there are still problems in this world... Think again, if you alone cant help anything, how about Steve Job one person can do Apple so famous? Here it explains, if you dont starts anything, you will not get anywhere....It is always you are the one...  

Hahaha... Thanks for reading... =) 

 

Dye Dye~~

Hehe... ^^.... I got my first hair colour... Trying out new things... To tell you the truth I never dye before and I do not like to dye hair because of the chemical.... But this time, I dont really care and just want to have fun... I also wont dye many times just once a while... =) 

That's why my hair colour wasnt that obvious because it was first time and my hair too black... I chose the colour darker a bit as you can see the picture... It was my first so I'm a bit worried that the colour doesnt suit me. In the end, that was the colour I chose... Hope you can see clearly... I love it with this colour, next time when my hair getting longer, I will put lighter colour.... =)

Yup, thats all I wanted to update with... Thanks..!! And goodnight.... 

PS Today is my last day of semester..!!! I am free... !!!

Finally!!

I have a super great news...!!! I am so blessed to get this..!! I have passed my driving test today, 13/10.2011... I'm really can not believed that I'm really passed this driving test in Australia... I can drive around without my L plate and company..!! =D You will not imagine how happy I am... Is so miracle that God done to me... 

You also can not imagine how hard for me to get there... I went for three times of driving test and total cost will be around $300 to get a driving test... Is so hard for me to get through these, easy to failed hard to get money... I'm great relieved that I do not have to go through again... Is over..!! 

I tell you something, I'm really pray so so hard to God that this test is so important to me... I even cry when I'm praying... I felt so desperate to pray that I'm really need to pass... If not I have a broken heart... I pray most of the time before I go to the driving centre and even during... I keep on focusing on what I am doing to do right, am thinking God is with me and follow what my friend told me.... So I am so blessed by it...

You know what, I'm really sweating on my hand to wait for the answer from the examiner... I went through everything very well but I still need to answer, I was so nervous when I am on the way back to the driving centre, I was like "Am I failed again that I am going back now..?" That's what my mind thinking about it, then another voice came into my mind, "It will be ok"... Wow, really shock is God spoke to me? Gosh, thank God... It was like no fear but my sweat came out fast like never had before.... Moreover, I heard I passed from examiner's mouth, I was like "What?", "You pass." Wow, really my heart just burst in joy and happiness..!! Seriously, until my body so hot that I cant keep it... I jumped around my friend, you know? Haha... Well not really is semi-circle.. >.<  I even acting in front of my friend that I didn't say anything but with my face expression, so he thought I didn't pass because he didn't know... Haha.. It is so funny to look at him when I pass him my paper that examiner wrote on it... 

Hahaha.. Okay okay... =D Just can end that I'm really happy until I want to share with you guys... So happy... Thanks !! Goodnight...!!!

No excuses

I just realised that this one small word "excuse" is so dangerous word to me and us... Saying this word is so easy and make us to stay in the comfort zone... We always use this word without realise it when people said it out to you that, why you always use the excuses to save you from danger situation or doing something you need to do...

Thats happen to me, it always me saying "I can not do this do that", "It is so hard", "I am who I am", "I'm a lonely person, no one think about me", "This person do not wants to talk to me because I'm a boring person, so just ignore", "Why I can not be like them"," I'm acting this way because I'm from this kind of family" and that's more, but I can't think of it at the moment.. It is true, all these are always in my mind...

It is so frustrated that these excuses are always in my mind or saying it out... What I am saying is, these excuses take me away from the things I wanted to learn...You know, when I started my driving, I always make excuses to make it is not my fault or my mistakes.. My friend always telling me do not do this and that, but I always said plenty of excuses... You see how terrible it is, it always been my habit..!! Really bad.. =(  Here I can see myself that I'm trying to make myself safe from getting caught and scold by my friend... When I know I can make these exuses, I found myself doing the wrong thing again because I can use the exuse again.... Can you see what I meant?

My friend also realised I doing it again with exuse again, then he talked to me after my driving and even during... He really taught me so so much that I cant imagine it... I'm really learn about myself more than I know about myself.... He even knows the reason behind it... >.< Okay, I tell you the reasons.... First thing exuse doesnt help you anything... Second thing is it will make you even weaker and last doesnt make you smarter... 

Let me tell you a short story, there is a girl who is very lazy, her mother always call her comes down to cook with her mother... But she always make exuses by saying I don't want because I dont know how to cook or I have homework to do (dont have at all)... Her mother loves her so much that doesnt force her to cook but her mother always wanted to cook with her daughter and teach her to be independent.... Life continues, the girl went to overseas study and leaving alone with strangers.... During the moment, she starts to feel homesick especially her mother's homecooking, then she realised her mother is trying to teach her all along that she feels regret for not doing it... Now, she starts to preciate her mother even more... The end....

I hope the story really tell you something.... ^^  It means when you can learn something, you push it away because you have good exuses to cover it and because you are lazy to do it and learn something new... Do you know why people always said "If people can do this, you also can"? Well, in my opinion is true... I can say do not look down on yourself but look forward on what you can do to change.... Believe it yourself thats the important and work hard to change... God will always on your back when you fell, he will carry you and push you... He will reward you when you are doing your sweat out.... =)

Thanks for your time to read.... Sorry too long... >.<

Great time to share

Oh my GOSH... >.< I'm really happy to share to everyone here about this video... I found this video from a girl from Youtube that I enjoy to watch her videos..!! I think most of the people who watch Youtube know about her.. Her name is Bubzbeauty !!... If anyone wants to learn about girl things like make up and more, I recommended her to you.. =)  You will like her because she so nice and sweet...

Haha.. Okay should stop talking about her, let me talk about this video... This video for everyone who do not understand much about God or bible and for the people feel curious about christian or why so important to know God... Yup, this is the video I recommend to you to watch.. It is a best video I have watched so far... Thanks to Bubzbeauty...

This is video have answered my prayer because I really want people to understand about God, I always believe there is God up there who always look after us and help us... I really want everyone to know that God is really loves us so so so much that we cant imagine it... He always plan our future ahead before we was born.... He is everything we need all along... When we have him with us, we dont have to worry about anything because he will always guide us, provide needs for us and everything without worry... =D Isn't it wonderful.. ??

I have a verse that I always remember which is a verse John 3:16 " For God loved the world so much that He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life ". This is so wonderful that when I die, I can have eternal life in heaven with God.... Now, I cant wait to go to be with him... Need to get ready for myself to see him one day.. =)

Thanks for reading... God loves you!!!

Yay..!! Finally received

Finally I have my photo papers!!.. I found in ebay so cheap!!.. 

 Just $82 for 10...

This is how it looks.. I know is blur.. But I dont have clear pic in my laptop now.. Sorry..

After I took out... I cant open up, have put the whole thing inside the polaroid..

Hahaha.. I'm so happy I got to use it... You see so many!!... Cant wait to use again.. =)

So beautiful.. **,

Oh my GOSH!!! Now the blog's system has changed... It is so confusing while I'm uploading my pictures.. It is hard to adjust... I'm not good at this kind of changes which is related to technology... Why not just stay the way it is... >.<

Assignments' nightmare..

Now already late night 2.31am blogging... Am so tired these days... Everything have to do my assignment... Always need to be aware of the due dates and so on... Actually most of the assignments are easy, the problems are just because of my understanding of the language, knowledge that I had in my diploma course and last minutes... >.< Oh yeah! One more is researching the information without using the website.. =.="

Last minutes works are so tiring and stress!!.. I really don't know why I'm still doing that even though I know... BUT~~ I have reason at the beginning, the reason is I'm not familiar with the system that the University was using.. It is really confusing as well as the students were in the same semester... There are so many things in one system, we do not know which is it and which is what? From there we had missed out the opportunities to do our assignments earlier... The tutor or the people who arranged the system don't bother to teach us... When the due dates are near, then they teach us where to find.. That's crazy, some of my assignments have to postpone because not everyone are doing it...

Assignments are really took my sleep away from me for few days to finish up... I also worried about my results, didnt't really doing it well... Just pray to pass for this semester... Have to do well for the next assignment and no way I'm going to waste my time... Main focus on me to organise my time wisely now...

My week break is nearly over, I hate it when time went by just like that.. Monday have to be serious already because there are two assignments due next week... I did try to concentrate my studies and assignments at the same time, the result was hard... All the days I spent on working, driving and cooking... Those things are really used up my time... Studies only few hours after I had finished those things... Plus spending time with God... Gosh... Have to study a bit before I get on my bed... Anyway, goodnite everyone... Sweet dreams.. Will blog more soon..