Friends

I always felt lonely since I'm was a kid...
I'm the one who always company people when they needs someone...
I can see through when people feeling down or lonely....
People have trouble in their mind, my ears are open...
all these i have been through so i knew...
but when I need someone... no one comes to me...

I always thinks that if i have friends, it will cure my loneliness....
I have so many friends but in the end, the feeling still there....
Friends always comes and go... some never come back...
Or never miss you or contact you....

From that moments....
I started to stop to care for people...
because its hurts if i treat them good...
but they don't treat the same...
I just treat them as a friend only..
so most of time I don't care much...

While i don't care about something...
they blame me said I don't have a heart...
I'm just too tired to care other people...
Why not think about my situation..

I have been lonely in my whole life...
I always doing things on my own...
I'm used to that life.. Is hard for me to change...
Don't worry... I try to share and learn...
I never get bored easily...
But I'm still a human.. so...

When I go some where, I will pray to God I wan a friend....
My prayer answered... I did had one or more...
Those friends are really good.. I love them..
Primary, secondary and college... I have 2 friends in each one...
Those are true friends to me... they never forget me...

Maybe I'm thinking too much and too picky at first...
I cannot have friends around me all the time...
important is they are still remember me..
still treat me as a friend is enough...
seeing them happy, I also feel happy...

I love all my friends...
So i need to use love to treat them...
Not by my selfish-ness...
I cant make people become the one i want...
Or be with me all the times...
This i knew from my own personal experience...
Love them for who they are...

I already got the one i want....
who always loves me for who am I...
Care and be with me all the times...
even not by my side but in my heart...
I don't feel lonely anymore...
thank you... I love you..