My Surroundings

All of my life that I had been through so much for 22 years... I was so fortunate that I have for my life... I'm really feel God is so good to me all the times... He knows me so well that he gave me this kind of life I had been through until now... Yeah I have been thinking so much about my life these days... Is so great to take your free time to know about yourself and your past... 

Then I'm still seeing the things that really make me realise so many things and compare to mine.... I saw people who suffer, homeless, proverty, hunger, unloved, loneliness and many more.... Compare to our problems are so little to the people out there... Do you ever think of it? When you feel like not enough but you already have it all along... When you have problems... Do you always complains, "Why me?", then you said "Is there God up there being fair?"... When comes to family, "Why do I have to treat my siblings good or why my parents treat them good than me?", "Why I do not have my parents like their parents?", "Whats wrong with my parents, there have no rights to treat me this way?"... "How come their parents buy this expensive stuff to their children and why I cant get it?"...

Do you ever think God is really treat you that unfair when other people who get no rights than you? For example, God gives you a life when the babies or children abandoned by mothers who just dont care, but yours you have a parents, shelter, food and everything you need... So many people do not have food!! However, here we have food and then have leftover food... How wasteful it is... Do you think is unfair? You feel lonely? Are you sure? Open your eyes, you have friends..!! How about people ignore by other people because of races or proverty? Arent they are lonely? Why not just stop thinking about yourself then thinking others' have more problems than you...Therefore, stop complaining about the problems you have, solve it yourself than complaining... 

About parents and siblings, parents treat other siblings good is their problem, you still can live... Do not focus on the jealousy, focus on how you are going to live to make them proud... If they are not, then you make yourself live in a better life and be proud of yourself that you can do that... =) When your parents treat you good than other siblings, treat them good so that they wont feel unloved by parents, that is why you siblings for... Help one another... 

Do you ever think that parents being that way because of their past? How they brought up in the family? Think again? Do you feel your parents bad? Do not compare with other parents, they have try their best to do for you to love you... It is sad that people do not realise how great is their parents are.... My life I do complain my mother doesnt love me like other mothers, then again my mother love me in her way... I can see that my mother love love me so much that I cannot compare... I'm so fortunate and it is enough for me..... 

Even we have the life of everything we need, preciate what you have and don expect for more.... Dream to make people's dream comes true that they cant imagine to dream of.... What I mean is people always hope or dreams for something they can satisfy their needs because they have no hope, so people like us can dream to help them.... It can be anything.... Use the things you have to help others than keeping it yourself... God also teach us to share the things you have... 

Another realisation is people always invest on something that are not important... Here the thing, people gamble on soccer, why not the money to save others even though is little bit... I dont care it for fun, do you think people can have fun like you when they don have anything to enjoy... Unless, you lost to help your friend... Sad thing is they lost the bet, they think is end of life... How about the people do not have money to live... For those people sponsor the soccer, dont you think the money can help the third world country? (Heard it from a friend) If they do, do you think is enough?

I do not care about people think I am immature person but I know what I am saying... Let you think this way, one person is selfish then you add up other people is also the same, aren't it a lot when it comes to whole world? That is why there are still problems in this world... Think again, if you alone cant help anything, how about Steve Job one person can do Apple so famous? Here it explains, if you dont starts anything, you will not get anywhere....It is always you are the one...  

Hahaha... Thanks for reading... =) 

 

Dye Dye~~

Hehe... ^^.... I got my first hair colour... Trying out new things... To tell you the truth I never dye before and I do not like to dye hair because of the chemical.... But this time, I dont really care and just want to have fun... I also wont dye many times just once a while... =) 

That's why my hair colour wasnt that obvious because it was first time and my hair too black... I chose the colour darker a bit as you can see the picture... It was my first so I'm a bit worried that the colour doesnt suit me. In the end, that was the colour I chose... Hope you can see clearly... I love it with this colour, next time when my hair getting longer, I will put lighter colour.... =)

Yup, thats all I wanted to update with... Thanks..!! And goodnight.... 

PS Today is my last day of semester..!!! I am free... !!!

Finally!!

I have a super great news...!!! I am so blessed to get this..!! I have passed my driving test today, 13/10.2011... I'm really can not believed that I'm really passed this driving test in Australia... I can drive around without my L plate and company..!! =D You will not imagine how happy I am... Is so miracle that God done to me... 

You also can not imagine how hard for me to get there... I went for three times of driving test and total cost will be around $300 to get a driving test... Is so hard for me to get through these, easy to failed hard to get money... I'm great relieved that I do not have to go through again... Is over..!! 

I tell you something, I'm really pray so so hard to God that this test is so important to me... I even cry when I'm praying... I felt so desperate to pray that I'm really need to pass... If not I have a broken heart... I pray most of the time before I go to the driving centre and even during... I keep on focusing on what I am doing to do right, am thinking God is with me and follow what my friend told me.... So I am so blessed by it...

You know what, I'm really sweating on my hand to wait for the answer from the examiner... I went through everything very well but I still need to answer, I was so nervous when I am on the way back to the driving centre, I was like "Am I failed again that I am going back now..?" That's what my mind thinking about it, then another voice came into my mind, "It will be ok"... Wow, really shock is God spoke to me? Gosh, thank God... It was like no fear but my sweat came out fast like never had before.... Moreover, I heard I passed from examiner's mouth, I was like "What?", "You pass." Wow, really my heart just burst in joy and happiness..!! Seriously, until my body so hot that I cant keep it... I jumped around my friend, you know? Haha... Well not really is semi-circle.. >.<  I even acting in front of my friend that I didn't say anything but with my face expression, so he thought I didn't pass because he didn't know... Haha.. It is so funny to look at him when I pass him my paper that examiner wrote on it... 

Hahaha.. Okay okay... =D Just can end that I'm really happy until I want to share with you guys... So happy... Thanks !! Goodnight...!!!

No excuses

I just realised that this one small word "excuse" is so dangerous word to me and us... Saying this word is so easy and make us to stay in the comfort zone... We always use this word without realise it when people said it out to you that, why you always use the excuses to save you from danger situation or doing something you need to do...

Thats happen to me, it always me saying "I can not do this do that", "It is so hard", "I am who I am", "I'm a lonely person, no one think about me", "This person do not wants to talk to me because I'm a boring person, so just ignore", "Why I can not be like them"," I'm acting this way because I'm from this kind of family" and that's more, but I can't think of it at the moment.. It is true, all these are always in my mind...

It is so frustrated that these excuses are always in my mind or saying it out... What I am saying is, these excuses take me away from the things I wanted to learn...You know, when I started my driving, I always make excuses to make it is not my fault or my mistakes.. My friend always telling me do not do this and that, but I always said plenty of excuses... You see how terrible it is, it always been my habit..!! Really bad.. =(  Here I can see myself that I'm trying to make myself safe from getting caught and scold by my friend... When I know I can make these exuses, I found myself doing the wrong thing again because I can use the exuse again.... Can you see what I meant?

My friend also realised I doing it again with exuse again, then he talked to me after my driving and even during... He really taught me so so much that I cant imagine it... I'm really learn about myself more than I know about myself.... He even knows the reason behind it... >.< Okay, I tell you the reasons.... First thing exuse doesnt help you anything... Second thing is it will make you even weaker and last doesnt make you smarter... 

Let me tell you a short story, there is a girl who is very lazy, her mother always call her comes down to cook with her mother... But she always make exuses by saying I don't want because I dont know how to cook or I have homework to do (dont have at all)... Her mother loves her so much that doesnt force her to cook but her mother always wanted to cook with her daughter and teach her to be independent.... Life continues, the girl went to overseas study and leaving alone with strangers.... During the moment, she starts to feel homesick especially her mother's homecooking, then she realised her mother is trying to teach her all along that she feels regret for not doing it... Now, she starts to preciate her mother even more... The end....

I hope the story really tell you something.... ^^  It means when you can learn something, you push it away because you have good exuses to cover it and because you are lazy to do it and learn something new... Do you know why people always said "If people can do this, you also can"? Well, in my opinion is true... I can say do not look down on yourself but look forward on what you can do to change.... Believe it yourself thats the important and work hard to change... God will always on your back when you fell, he will carry you and push you... He will reward you when you are doing your sweat out.... =)

Thanks for your time to read.... Sorry too long... >.<